Well That’s Weird

I have thirteen tattoos. I started getting tattooed a decade ago and other than my pregnancy and Wade’s baby stage I’ve gotten tattooed pretty regularly. I’ve got big tattoos. Weird tattoos. Conversation-starter tattoos. But something about this sleeve has…changed…the way other humans interact with me. And it’s got me thinking. So when I was younger – a teenager – I never thought I’d get a tattoo. And if I did it would be black and gray. STEEPED in meaning. And

Get Outta My Headspace

I’m on my phone and half asleep while I type this, but I’m doing it anyway. Because I’m stuck on this thought of… How can you borderline hate someone and also feel thankful toward them? I don’t know how I’ll ever straighten out my thoughts regarding my ex-husband. Because, I mean… What’s the point of being angry with him? Why am I so upset? The loss of a future that wasn’t promised anyway? I have no doubt we could’ve been

Dirty Thirty

I had a pretty great 30th Birthday celebration, y’all. The week prior to my birthday I went on a camping trip with my family. The night of my birthday one of my best friends from high school came over and we sat on my porch sipping beer and relaxing. The weekend after my birthday was my “BANGIN’ 30TH BIRTHDAY PARTY” and I had so much fun. Saturday: bike rideputt-puttlunch + ice creampedicuresdinnerrandom adventure to a house showdrinks Sunday: breakfast at

To My Ex-Husband, On Our Anniversary…

We started dating sometime in August 2008. A month or two later we realized we didn’t really remember when when started dating, so we didn’t have an official anniversary. We knew it was mid-August, so we picked a date: August 14. Two years later we got married on August 14, 2010. Seven years after that you moved out of the house on August 14, 2017. We filed for divorce two months later. I don’t know when you gave up on

Anniversaries…

Life is interesting, you know? A year and a half ago I thought I was happily married. I guess I wasn’t. Because about a year ago, my life went to shit. I wasn’t sure what to expect as this time of the year loomed…but really, for the most part, things are good. Definitely infinitely better than where I was last year. Which really isn’t very impressive. That bar was set pretty low. Did you know that all this started (for

Dream Journal?

I had a weird dream last night. I don’t think it’s significant or anything, I just wanted to type it out because it’s been so long since I had a weird dream. lol! Anyway, so idk where we were, but we discovered that if we put on these red glasses and stood in certain spots, we could travel to a parallel universe. Everything was the same, but different. As parallel universes go, you know. But then it turned out that

And just like that…

…my baby boy is two! I can’t believe it. I really can’t. I have so much fun hanging out with this boy. His personality! Oh my goodness he’s hilarious. He does this thing where, when he’s trying to get my attention he’ll turn his head totally sideways and look at me and say…”fruit stripes?” (Because that’s ALL HE EVER WANTS TO EAT.) omg it’s just so cute. He can totally frustrate me at times, but 98% of the time that

Forgiveness

I’ve mentioned Divorce Care before. We met last night, and the topic was “Forgiveness”. (Thank God they skipped over “New Relationships” because after “Single Sexuality” I just don’t think I could take any more awkwardness.) Anyway, I’ve been mulling over the idea of it in regards to my own situation (forgiveness, not sexuality) ever since. In the video, they were talking about how forgiveness means you’re no longer wishing to “get even” with your ex. You don’t care anymore about

Clearing Out My Brain

So I’m going to Divorce Care, right? It’s been really good up until the last couple sessions. One was basically telling people they sinned if they got divorced unless it fit certain criteria, and some people should never get remarried unless they marry their ex again. That was weird. And the most recent one was “Single Sexuality”. I’m not EVEN going to get into that, okay? It was weird. I didn’t enjoy it, or agree with most of it. And

Procrastination Station

I’m suddenly remembering all my flaws from when I was a student. Mainly because I’m actively doing it all over again. I’ve done three loads of laundry – AND GOT IT ALL PUT AWAY – today. I also cleaned my room. You know why? I have an exam tomorrow. -_- I’M NOT PROUD OF THIS PART OF MY PERSONALITY. I procrastinate like whoa when it comes to school stuff. I don’t know if it’s better or worse that this is